tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-330146402011-04-21T13:18:56.032-07:00Benhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16519306481513441531noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33014640.post-1156009728527844932006-08-19T10:40:00.000-07:002006-08-19T10:59:30.213-07:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5128/3619/1600/bensmall.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/5128/3619/320/bensmall.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />I'm unsure what I should start with, maybe the reason that I feel why I should be writing this. I've always felt that writing feelings and situations down helps me to understand them better. I have been doing this on and off for some years. However, I would like to publish these thoughts so other people may read them. I'm under no dillusions that anyone will, but I like the idea of these emotions being published in a public forum.<br /><br />I will say a little about me. I am a 22 year old man living in England. I am gay. I have recently felt that I have met my soulmate in this world. My viewpoint may be somewhat narcissistic, and I have always felt that I would find someone who will be that perfect partner. However there is a problem with this happy scenario: the person I have these feelings for is unsure what to do, and whether he wishes to pursue this relationship. This has caused me great turmoil, and made me question my feelings completely. I have scrutinised them carefully, and am now as certain as ever that this is the way I really feel. I am unsure what I can do, and truth be told, there is nothing that I <span style="font-style: italic;">can</span> do, but right now I feel completely powerless.<br /><br />I have nothing more to say at the moment, I will update this page as often as I feel like it.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/33014640-115600972852784493?l=benjyben.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Benhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16519306481513441531noreply@blogger.com1